waiting...

i've been putting all my effort for the past few days to search for songs which are reflecting my mood right now...songs with a lot of emotions. sad, depressed, i don't really know. all i know is these emotions are the result of waiting...

i've been waiting for someone for a very very long time already. haven't show up for a few days already. maybe it's because of the different time zones we are in. maybe it's because of studies... assignments perhaps? maybe it's because of some probs... access to the internet, computer problem, something else?

i can't believe i'm doing this to myself. i'm trying to put up a mask to hide all these emotions but it is hard to pretend that everything will be fine eventually. and to add to the emos, i have a midterm test tonight, and i'm totally unprepared for it. and i despise myself for the effort that i'm putting in. not enough, no not enough!

hope someone, somewhere will end my misery... if only i can have what i want... what i long for... ah.. just another day of hopes and wishes...